Goodness gracious! What a roller coaster
Goodness gracious! What a roller coaster of emotions this week! Mother’s Day is supposed to be a time of celebration of MOM and MOTHERHOOD, right?! Don’t get me wrong, I love being a MOM and I LOVE my CHILDREN! In fact, Motherhood is the ultimate profession. A high calling – a profession that can bring out the best and the worst in us right? Builds character for sure!
The emotional roller coaster thing has been a wild ride. It’s been that way for more than 3 decades now. For the majority of that time my emotions were just a mass of confusion. It was only until the spring of 2003 that I was finally able to sort out what that mass and jumble of emotional confusion was all about. Mother’s Day and early May have been tough and I didn’t know why until midway through the healing journey from my past abortion as a scared young woman of 18. My daughter’s birthday would have been around Mother’s Day….it all became so much clearer as the truth unfolded.
You see, no one talked about abortion trauma back then. They tell you you’ll be sad for a couple days so take it easy, sadness will turn to relief and then life can get back to normal. It’s not a baby yet, no big deal – you can have lots more children later when you’re ready. Well, life was never “normal” again!
In fact, the moment I walked out the door of the Lovejoy Surgicenter I walked directly into a prison cell of my soul. [...]